A few days ago, I went out at night by myself and sat on a plastic chair in front of the rolling waves of Cancún. It was really peaceful to sit alone and think about 2011 that I just lived out and 2012 that’s just ahead.

I think my New Year’s Resolution for 2012 will be to give more.

I feel like I was so selfish and focused a great deal on myself this past year, and I’m terribly disappointed in myself in that area. I was all focused on what made me happy and successful and lovely and perfect and all that crap.

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It’s almost cliche, the fact that we’re all unique and special in our own way. Everyone has heard it a million times and it’s one of those phrases that seems to never go away. But I think what’s even more important is the idea that just being unique and special isn’t enough; it’s how we bring that uniqueness into the world around us and affect other people.

We’re put here on this earth to be with other people, aren’t we?

And what a waste it would be, to just horde everything that’s been given to us and waste it on our own indulgence instead of giving it all back to others. Why do I feel myself and many of my peers do just that? Wasting their minds on television and Internet, wasting their time on misplaced desires, wasting their bodies on poor eating and exercise habits and drugs and alcohol, wasting their hearts with lust and emotion and on people who don’t deserve it, wasting, wasting, wasting… Because it feels “right”, it’s what everyone else and the social norm are doing, it’s the easiest way out, it makes ourselves happy, blissful and oblivious to our everyday “problems”.

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I don’t feel “ready” for 2012. But oh look too bad, it’s already here. I want this year to be not about me, but about ‘you’: the people that read this blog, that selflessly look out for me, that I meet when we someday or sometime cross paths. Not about me, but about You, the God who has given me everything I need and more to live and glorify Him.

How very nice that New Years Day this year is on a Sunday. Praise God for another year! Heres to planning more, giving more, praying more, living more, and loving more; celebrating joyfully in times of happiness, being humbled and disciplined when times are tough, and giving our best effort in everything that we choose to live for.

One-two, you know what to do.